eg Instagram, a Bordeaux woman recounts her fight against anorexia

That’s it for the first time …

This is the first glance. But under his avatar, this mention “TCA fighter” (ed., A person who fights eating disorders). Behind this staging lies the disease that the young woman looks in the face. In her posts, she was silent about this anorexia that has been gnawing at her for about 15 years. “I’m not cured yet, even though I’m much better,” she said, admitting she still had “normal weight anorexia” (51kg for 1.70). “It simply came to our notice then. I sometimes have fun but always with a lot of guilt. »

Early diets in adolescence

She leads her battle by looking at the path she has taken. “It simply came to our notice then. A long battle that the young Bordeaux woman, originally from Perpignan, leads with lucidity, without being afraid to utter the word “mental illness”. She remembers the starting point. This early puberty she did not accept, and the first diets around 12-13 years. Then, “right after high school, I wanted to become a sports coach so I could eat everything I wanted.” I did 35 hours of sports a week! I was in a self-destructive, completely depressed compensation system. »

In 2015, Taïna drastically reduced its caloric intake and weighed all its food to the nearest weight. “I had a feeling of absolute hypercontrol, it was my refuge. Note everything that caresses me in smartphone apps. We set a weight goal and were told the amount of food to eat: it’s devastating… »

Relapse during confinement

After a stabilization stage, confinement in 2020 to precipitation to a new relapse. Violent. Its weight drops to 44 kg. “I was delivered to myself, I wanted to control everything.” My fridge and cupboards had to be empty. To save my couple, I took refuge with my parents. »

Back in Bordeaux, she will be followed for several months in a specialized department of the Haut-Lévêque University Hospital, until she goes “a step”, thanks to the help of a psychiatrist, a dietitian and a psychomotor therapist. And driven by “the unwavering support” of what she calls “her Instagram community,” where she shares her illness.

Social media does not emphasize ambivalence either. “Every day I see well-known influencers encourage people to play sports to lose weight. Or you have to do it to be healthy. »

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